I'm in a funk. That's not uncommon, as I seem to get them once a month. And they usually consist of 1 of 2 things, or a combination of 2 things. This funk is the combo package which includes wanting to leave NYC. Wanting to live somewhere that I can afford to buy a house, drive a car to work, have a backyard, spend less money for many things, not constantly be in groups of people... sometimes I realize I'm too introverted for a big city. But other times I thrive on the urban setting.
The other side of the funk is artistic. I feel I've not done anything worth my time in a while and that I'll never be "accomplished". I don't want to be well known for my work, I just want to be someone that produces quality work and often. I also want to enjoy my own work and not say things like "It's not that good" "I'm not happy with it" "I wish I had done this differently" when people compliment me. I've been drawing durring some of the model sets in the class that I'm teaching and I really like the figure drawings I'm producing. I even enjoy it when the highschoolers gather around me and I demonstrate some techniques and ideas. I just wish that I would take the time outside of that class to sit down and work on a new project, whether it be more paintings or a new film.
Now, I know myself and I know that by next week, I'll be walking home and enjoying the street of brownstones and watching the birds fly in a massive group and be very happy to live in brooklyn. And I'll sit down and paint something and be very happy with myself and I won't think about this funk again until next month when it comes back.
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i just had a conversation like this with one of my residents--she's a freshman and going through her first artist's block. oh and how frequently they will come.
brooklyn is almost like having a backyard. i mean, at least there are some trees around...
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